IC Contact [ryslig]

[catphishing]

WELCOME TO YOUR PRIVATE CHANNEL, OLIVER. FOR SECURE COMMUNICATION, USE 142.58.303.67 *** oliver has joined 142.58.303.67 <oliver> So this is my private channel. <oliver> Talk to me?

Current Usernames

<trashpanda>
<mothman>
<oliver>
<deBricassart> (anon)

Former Usernames

<creepypasta>

Throwaways

<zx01r3z>
<tfk>

Changeling Throwaways

Comments

backdated to early morning, may 14th

[fourthsaken]

hey, don't worry about me but i'm not gonna be around today. maybe not tomorrow either, i dunno. i'm not hurt or in danger or anything, i just need some time alone. please, please, please don't worry. i'm fine.

<oliver>

[catphishing]

This doesn't make me feel better/
Where are you going?

<jaded>

[fourthsaken]

if i tell you will you leave me alone?

<oliver>

[catphishing]

Maybe. That depends what you tell me.

<jaded>

[fourthsaken]

i'm at the studio above my store, okay?

<oliver>

[catphishing]

[Well, at least it's safe there...]

Are you sure you're OK?

<jaded>

[fourthsaken]

yeah. this is just, a thing. it happens every year but last year i wasn't living with people like you and soeki who'd worry so much if i went mia for a couple days.

<oliver>

[catphishing]

Thanks for telling us.
If you need anything just let us know.

<jaded>

[fourthsaken]

i could use some mcr if soeki doesn't need his phone.

and are you in responsible adult mode right now or can i ask for something to drink?

<oliver>

[catphishing]

I'm sure he can handle being without it for a little while.

You're an adult with two successful businesses. If you want to drink I'm not going to stop you.
Just don't ask me to bring too much.
It's not a healthy way to deal with things.

<jaded>

[fourthsaken]

only if you're sure.

i don't feel like an adult. if i was an adult, i wouldn't miss her so much.

<oliver>

[catphishing]

That's not true. It takes a long time to stop missing someone important no matter how old you are.

<jaded>

[fourthsaken]

it's been five years if you count all my time here. shit, maybe more than five years.

<oliver>

[catphishing]

I don't think this is something you can put a time limit on.

<jaded>

[fourthsaken]

i wish i could. i want it to get easier.

<oliver>

[catphishing]

I know, but parents are important. You've got to take it at your own pace.

<jaded>

[fourthsaken]

i miss her so much, and it's stupid because she didn't even love me anymore.

<oliver>

[catphishing]

That's not stupid.
I'm sure she loved you even if she didn't act like it.

<jaded>

[fourthsaken]

she didn't. she thought i was sent by the devil or some shit. the doctors weren't sure she would ever stop hating me.

<oliver>

[catphishing]

But if she wasn't well are you sure that's what she really thought?

<jaded>

[fourthsaken]

she made it really clear she hated me.

<oliver>

[catphishing]

I don't think parents can hate their kids.
Not really.

<jaded>

[fourthsaken]

she'd chase me out of her room and say i was possessed by the devil. she'd like, accidentally hit me sometimes just to make me get away from her. jimmy had to step in between us a lot.

she hated me.

<oliver>

[catphishing]

I honestly don't buy that those were her real thoughts though.
She sounds like she was very unwell.

<jaded>

[fourthsaken]

ptsd. that's what the doctors said.