[ Matt keeps his gaze low. He won't forget what he's done, what he'll have to live with. Connor might forgive him, but it's unlikely he'd ever forgive himself. Winding down from it all leaves Matt with only his guilt to keep him company. He'd rather be alone than face a reminder of every mistake he told himself he'd never make.
Plus, what if he's ruined things between Connor and Oliver? Connor wouldn't forgive him for that. Even with all the tension between them, Matt knows they care about each other. He could hear it when they were around each other, and he can hear it now in Oliver's hitched breath and pained tone. ]
[Sorry doesn't fix this. Unless Connor really does come back nothing will. But it's a relief to get out of there at least. With any luck he'll never have to look at him again.]
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[ Matt keeps his gaze low. He won't forget what he's done, what he'll have to live with. Connor might forgive him, but it's unlikely he'd ever forgive himself. Winding down from it all leaves Matt with only his guilt to keep him company. He'd rather be alone than face a reminder of every mistake he told himself he'd never make.
Plus, what if he's ruined things between Connor and Oliver? Connor wouldn't forgive him for that. Even with all the tension between them, Matt knows they care about each other. He could hear it when they were around each other, and he can hear it now in Oliver's hitched breath and pained tone. ]
I am sorry, Oliver.
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[Sorry doesn't fix this. Unless Connor really does come back nothing will. But it's a relief to get out of there at least. With any luck he'll never have to look at him again.]